Help..

God.. Help me... I don't want to hate them...

worried..

Oh well.. It's midnight here..

I have just finished my homework, while accompanying my dearest husband watching DVDs.. He's asleep now.. :)

I have mixed feelings now. On one side I feel like going out and having a chit chat with my friends, but in the other hand, I also don't know what to share. Hihi.. I don't know.. it's just so hard to explain... The 'period' has successfully increased my sensitive and gloomy side. Hehehe..

I was doing my check-writing homework.. when suddenly I started to worry. The difficult times I faced around a month ago probably caused a bit of a trauma. As I was writing down the numbers on the checks, I asked God over and over.. "God, will I be able to pay all of these? I'm scared.." Even until now, the moment that I typed this blog, I'm still way too scared. I really would like to run away if I could.. But too bad, I can't..

I'm worried.. I'm scared..

I know worry won't add any inches to my life.. but sometimes you just can't help it, rite? Right now, I just don't know what to do. Worry has successfully makes me unable to see future positively.

I really don't know what my future days would be like. In this case, I don't know how much money I will get in the days ahead, but I already know how much money I will have to spend. Sounds scary, eh?

My husband and my dad chatted earlier in the afternoon. They talked about this month's sales, and also some prediction in the months ahead. The rainy season is here.. (oh well.. I think it has been a rainy year for Indonesia. It has been raining everyday since January :p) and we have to stock up our raw materials. My husband said that until the end of this month, he is very sure that we can make lots of sales, but he still doesn't have a clue for November onwards...

and November.. is the month when I have to make lots of payments... That's when I start worrying.

God, I'm scared.. Please help..

Difficult People?

On this day, God wants you to know
... that difficult people are very important, - they teach you tolerance and acceptance. If all was going your way all the time, you would become a spoiled child, wouldn't everyone? Difficult people are just one of the ways God teaches us to expand beyond our egos and accept other perspectives on life.

(From: "God wants you to know"applications in Facebook)